Went to see the psychologist today. He didn't offer an immediate solution, but rather a long term. He suggested me to open up everything and be frank with him. But I think i won;t do that, just like BLOW has told me, no point telling them them a story, no matter how exciting or touching the story is, they just want result. I finally understand how different am I compared to the others, although i speak the samw way / behave the same way. mr blog